Day 2 - Your First Love

I almost forgot about this...
Don't be surprised if I miss a day, and make up for it the next.

My first love. lol
Well it says the first one. Not the most significant one. I guess this one is the one in grade 9 then.
Some of you might know who I'm talking about.
My grade 9 year was pretty depressing. I was emo for most of it. Come to think of it, I was a pretty emo kid. But anyways, it's not about my grade 9 year, it's about my first love, that happened in grade 9.

I'll be leaving out the name, it's better if you guys don't dig up my past, and for her privacy as well I guess. Who knows, maybe she doesn't want to be mentioned either.

Well, what can I say. I met this girl in the beginning of grade 9. She wasn't Asian, she was white. That period in time I hung out with both Asians and whites. She was a nice girl and everything, she was pretty too. Looking back, I really really liked her. I'm not sure what about her that I really liked. She was nice to me, easy to talk to etc. I always got hugs from her every day I saw her. =) I believe, she was also the first girl to kiss me on the cheek. I just recalled that peck ha ha. That peck really made my day. ^^

She knew I liked her, but she liked someone else. So, her and that guy dated. I knew, I saw, but I couldn't swallow it. As you can guess, I was really hurt and depressed by it. Despite that, I still kept liking her throughout the year.

I think they broke up once or twice throughout the year till graduation. I can't remember. I was thinking about asking her out when they did, but found out I was already late, they got back together. I think it took them a week or so to make up.

In the end, her and I were just friends. She never came to York Mills. She moved during the summer. I forgot where to again. At that point in my life, I had really bad memory, not sure why. I guess my memory is only a bit better now ha ha.

Her and I don't talk anymore, but it's not like we have any problems with each other. We've talked after she moved and everything. The amount of time we did talk, there was less and less to discuss. I guess it was due to lack of mutual interest, and separate lives.

The only thing I regret is that I was not able to move on fast enough, instead I spent so much time thinking about what could have been. Maybe if I was able to move on, I would have been able to see new and other things. I don't regret liking her. She was the highlight of my 9th year, but at the same time the bottom lows.

-My thoughts, made tangible